Starting up a new blog site has been a whole lot of excitement, learning, frustration and wondering, all wrapped into one big fun-and-scary vortex. There are the exhausted-and-contemplating-if-this-is-really-what-I-am-supposed-to-be-doing-in-my-life-right-now-with-a-career-and-three-tiny-tots evening mental battlefield moments. Then there are laying-snug-in-bed occasions when I can’t fall asleep, well into the breaking of a new day, trying to control all of the thoughts and words that I want to share with my readers. All followed by the waking-up-to-fresh-giggles-and-cuddles-new-day-ready-to-blog-and-share mornings, which are utterly inspiring.
Last night, I was kind of at a stand-still with where to go next. I hate to be the center of attention. But I feel like I have a lot of great things to write and share. To me, being behind the scenes (or, in this case, the screen) is so. much. more. comfortable. I can let my guard down. Share with you some of the most personal parenting moments or struggles within myself. My next step was the issue. The big question mark. The cause of my uneasiness. And so, my mind kept shifting back to a recent post that I wrote about turning to God in our times of need. At life’s biggest forks-in-the-road. When change is swirling all around.
So, that’s just what I did. I grabbed my bible, cuddled up on the couch with a very squirmy Baby Nugget, and we opened to Psalms…my go-to book. Today…with my first flip of the pages, I was presented with Psalm 139. Not quite what I was looking for. So, with the help of some tiny, sticky fingers, we stumbled upon Psalm 143…p.e.r.f.e.c.t. “Let the morning bring me word of your unfailing love, for I have put my trust in you. Show me the way I should go, for to you I lift up my soul.”
So, now I wait. My wish for today. For tomorrow. For the weeks and months to come. Is for guidance. I know I am in the right place. I just need some help with direction. I will continue to pray and wish that God help guide me out of my shell. To realize that what I have to say is valuable to others. And that the time I put in can only provide blessings and abundance on the receiving end of those same messages, words of relating and undiscovered opportunities. This post is part of “Wednesday Wishes” with Love-the-Here-and-Now.
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